Letting Go…

Okay before I get to the meat of this post I need to get something out of your mind. That song from Frozen “Let It Go”…please get it out of your brain. Here, let me spare you of the terrible story line, horrible character development, and most annoying mediocre song in the world with something… more pleasant…

Ah…much better…so back to subject matter: Letting Go…

Bunny took me to my favorite place yesterday to think things over, get a different perspective, and finally get some sun. Going to the zoo was a great way to get my mind off of things. There was only one goal in mind, which was to see all of the creatures that San Diego Zoo can offer… If you are an amateur photographer like me, you’d meticulously plan out the best route to see all of the animals while discarding any creatures that you aren’t interested in (monkeys and primates). Once at the enclosure, I’d compose a picture in my mind, and wait patiently for that creature to perform… press the button and viola! Final product can be amazing…Anyway! i digress.  Today’s topic is not on zoo photography it’s on letting go…

On the way home from SD zoo, which was about a 3 hour drive. I was pensive. I thought about all the things that had happened in my past life and realized that all of my core memories are mixtures of sadness, anger, and fear… only one, just one, was joy… So I started the ultimate purging of every single negative aspect of my life. One by one, the purging process became easier… the stories became just stories – no emotions attached. It’s sad, as I came to realize, that all the stories that I could recall were negative. I had to think really hard for the happy ones, which were far and few between. So something changed in my mind. I don’t want to live with sadness anymore. I need to focus on the positive in life and replace my core memories with happy ones…

Poor Bun was exhausted after all the stories I’d spilled out. I am truly thankful for my husband for being so supportive and patient. Couldn’t have done it without him. Today I felt physically and emotionally drained. But you know what? For the first time my mind did not wonder to my usual dark places. It felt amazing to be able to sleep peacefully. It’s liberating. Thank you Bunny for all of your help. Love you forever and ever and ever…

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